THIS WAS WRITTEN BY MY FIRST LOVE: Idowu Abaaji
For anyone that has loved and lost, there is somethin' deep inside that only them can feel. Yet tha blames does no stop comin' and u keep gettin' hurt. And somehow tha more u wonder at tha insensitivity of tha world around u, tha worst it gets. What then do u do? Get angry and curse? Or even stare up to look at tha creators eye up in tha heavens and sneer at what u imagined to be tha injustices of His smiles? Not many would understand tha rationale behind those words. For u too can never undertsand it. You have never been in tha battle of tryin' to salvage what u feel is left of a once promisin' future. Along tha way, many would patronise u with words like ' i know what u're goin' thru', but how could they possibly know when they're not u! Well they say it takes one to know one, but there's been non that came here with me that's not already left and yet i'm still here! Well i know u won't understand ma gibberish b'cuz like most outta townaz like u words are always taken from tha surface.
Life in its uncanniness can sometimes thrust a certain bitterness upon u that u may end up bein' prejudiced against life itself. U'd sometimes try and philosophise about it, but then u'd feel urself driftnin' on the edge of sanity and insanity. Soliloquy, reminiscents, vivid flashbacks and imaginations are tha seductive past times that tha past would thrust upon u, but u must know that they are tricks that would 4ever tie u to ur past. Tha weight in duress is of what tha heart may never comprehend with! See i'm not talkin' about tha scars( 4 tha wound must have healed to leave a scar), rather i'm talkin' about wounds that refused to heal. Ol' wounds that is yet fresh, 4 when it tries to heal thin's happen to open and re-open it. So u see such are tha feelin's of one who has loved and lost. Rich they are thus in experience yet they remain poor in acheivements. So for me, experiences such as those, silly as they sound and unwanted as they may be thus opened ma eyes. That tha future should not be left to chance, but must be planned. So to perfect tha future, one should be on his toes and weigh tha possibilities of a two world................
For anyone that has loved and lost, there is somethin' deep inside that only them can feel. Yet tha blames does no stop comin' and u keep gettin' hurt. And somehow tha more u wonder at tha insensitivity of tha world around u, tha worst it gets. What then do u do? Get angry and curse? Or even stare up to look at tha creators eye up in tha heavens and sneer at what u imagined to be tha injustices of His smiles? Not many would understand tha rationale behind those words. For u too can never undertsand it. You have never been in tha battle of tryin' to salvage what u feel is left of a once promisin' future. Along tha way, many would patronise u with words like ' i know what u're goin' thru', but how could they possibly know when they're not u! Well they say it takes one to know one, but there's been non that came here with me that's not already left and yet i'm still here! Well i know u won't understand ma gibberish b'cuz like most outta townaz like u words are always taken from tha surface.
Life in its uncanniness can sometimes thrust a certain bitterness upon u that u may end up bein' prejudiced against life itself. U'd sometimes try and philosophise about it, but then u'd feel urself driftnin' on the edge of sanity and insanity. Soliloquy, reminiscents, vivid flashbacks and imaginations are tha seductive past times that tha past would thrust upon u, but u must know that they are tricks that would 4ever tie u to ur past. Tha weight in duress is of what tha heart may never comprehend with! See i'm not talkin' about tha scars( 4 tha wound must have healed to leave a scar), rather i'm talkin' about wounds that refused to heal. Ol' wounds that is yet fresh, 4 when it tries to heal thin's happen to open and re-open it. So u see such are tha feelin's of one who has loved and lost. Rich they are thus in experience yet they remain poor in acheivements. So for me, experiences such as those, silly as they sound and unwanted as they may be thus opened ma eyes. That tha future should not be left to chance, but must be planned. So to perfect tha future, one should be on his toes and weigh tha possibilities of a two world................
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