Memoir Prt. 4

Now i know that if words alone was enough, maybe i would have been ur brightest star. But now that u spake ur words in fumblin' tongues, all i can do now is pray that tha peace of tha lord should come down and soothe ma ailin' soul. Times in tha past i told maself that it wasn't gonna die , that tha flame would keep ragin' on, but who is kiddin' who? I used to think that rivers cannot drown love, that waters too cannot wash it away but i guess i 4got that time changes yesterday! Thank u 4 this re-awakenin' call. I have slept 4 far 2 long. Now that ur yesterday means nothin' 2 u, i know now that i was dreamin' all this while. A dream that is a mirage in this desert of mine.
Although if i have tha chance to go back in time, i'll still pick u and all tha thin's that happened. Thin's we planned4 and tha ones we never planned. I'll still want 2 go thru tha thrills and pains u brought. I'll still want 2 feel what i felt 4 u, tha tears, tha pains, tha seperation, but i'd rather claim tha kiss i never got or maybe even more? But i know one thin' though, i have what many do not have now; a past that has shaped tha future. Tha experience has now made me a better person than i was b4. I leave u with a part of me that i know i can never retrieve. Tha better me now i reserve 4 that someone who would unlock tha door u closed. That person would lay claim 2 tha better me that u unknowin'ly moulded. Until then, i pray u get all tha love that u want. Somehow i think u deserve that. Take good care of urself ma dear sweet ol' Viv. I'll 4ever remain ur 'FRIEND'. CHEERIOS